Time to sink into the black abyss of my mind,
I’m being dragged down by the weight of the anchor strapped to my feet,
What once started as the needle has become the hay stack,
Towering over everything i do,
Focussing on what i lack,
Pulling me down until i can’t remember what came before;
Itching me to i claw the inside of my brain.
I float on the surface of the ice cold cool blue,
My ears are muffled,
As if the water has become the captain to my ship,
Controlling what i can hear
And if i sink deeper; what i can feel.
But i relax because i know that i won’t float or sink forever,
I might end up on the shore disguised as the tide
And walk along the sand to find a jungle by my side so lively that even the birds cower.
One that is so alive that it towers over me and i try to do the same,
One that muffles my mind with a single breath.
A sea that was once blue is now just replaced by one of green.
But i will relax because i know i won’t be walking in this foreseen jungle until the end of time;
I worry that if the water that resides inside my ears,
That muffles the world so well,
Will refuse to set sail when the gales arrive
Or when i land in that dock i’ve been dreaming of since i’ve floated in both blue and green,
The same dock that i know i will feel safe in it’s embrace,
Holding me close,
Loving and looking after my helm for the duration of my stay.
Now i will start to worry;
I will worry because for the first time since i set sail i won’t be invariably looking out of my crow’s nest,
I will worry because i will be blind to the storms that so clearly brew above me,
But most of all i will worry because i will be happy with my stay in this dreamy dock of mine.
The point is,
Everything is temporary and it’s fucking drowning me.